It is a question I have been pondering since yesterday, not knowing what it means or whether I can even quantify it.But I know I have been far from good, I know I wish I was, but I am not. Now my father was a good man, he took good care of us, I never felt scared from anyone except him as a child (I was full of mischiefs) and he was good to even those who were bad to him. Come to think of it, I was bad to him as well. Never quite understood him, until it was too late.
Maybe being good is all about having a clear heart and a clear conscious, respecting everyone and accepting them for who they are, irrespective of their behavior towards you. And letting go of anger and not harboring any malice in your heart.
It sounds so easy when I write this down, but I know it isn’t. I hold grudges and I have kicked people out of my life for small things. And my tone of voice usually contains a lot more rudeness, if I feel someone is being even a little rude towards me. Worst still, it all feels very natural and part of life. I know it shouldn’t be, but it is.
But I am my father’s son and I feel a burden when I am rude to someone and I do not like that. I guess being rude and being self aware doesn’t go hand in hand. And I need to fix that.
I also have to stop holding grudges and let god deal with the things people do and instead concentrate on what I can do to improve my life and that of others around me and be kind to everyone I meet. Only then I would be able to look up to my father and say with pride, dad, I am your son.
Unconditional love or love that only wants to give and not take or expect, strengthens and is healing, it never hurts or inflicts pain on the other.
Beautiful words Swati and quite true.
The way you expressed through your writing is very much appreciated . ..The moment the love turns into attachment and becomes a dependency, that person starts dominating and controlling your inner world of thoughts, feelings and emotions and your mental and emotional freedom is lost…so, don’t hold grudges..To be free from worry means to have the power to change negative into positive
Swati, I wasn’t talking about love. I was talking about life in general, not sure if it seemed that way. I was rude to a courier guy yesterday, when I talked in a rude tone and that made me think about it. By kicking people out life I meant individuals I have known or were friends with at one point of time, but somehow differences crept in and I just shut them off of my life.
yes sir..i got ur thoughts